Pissed off.
Yeah, I am in a really pissy mood. I have been rejected. And truthfully, I feel like I have been treated like shit.
And now, I have been told, that since it is in the past, I need to just "get over it". She has apologized, so I guess that I am not allowed to still be angry.
Well, it ain’t just that easy.
I thought a fire had been rekindled. I thought a passionate was beginning to be renewed.
Fuck me……I guess I was wrong.
da Missus decided to go see “Him” Saturday night. And while I was greatly disappointed by her decision, I was overall ok with it. I mean, we did for the first time in a long time, actually make love that afternoon, instead of just fuck, or even had sex. But due to the fact of it being the middle of the afternoon with da Twinsies awake and running amuck, our time was very limited.
We had an emotional connection again with it. And, based on discussion throughout the day, and behaviors through the week, I really thought that we would be able to have a lengthy love making session again that evening. But then, she decided to go see “Him” and her friends instead of staying home. She then promised to be home by 2pm the next day. I told her that I was not giving her a time to be home.
“No, I want to show you I can do this.” That was her response. This was after a number of times where she would promise to be home by a certain time and for whatever reason could not.
Well, she showed me. She showed me a lot.
She did not get home until after 9 pm….
Fire doused. Passion gone.
I do not think she has any clue to how much damage she has done. She has basically shown me that I mean absolutely nothing to her. And maybe that is how she feels.
