Code Name D.A.D. … Defeat Anger Daily

Here I am attempting to blog. While I do have a lot going on right now, I have absolutly no clue how to put it in words.

Let’s just say that right now, da Missus and I are having  a difference in views on something, and I can honestly say, I do not know where it will go.

Due to many things going on in my personal life, I will not be blogging or chatting with anyone for a while.

Yes, I am going to be ok.

No, I do not want to talk about it.

Let’s just say that everyone has a different point of view and leave it at that.

Leopards do not change their spots.

Well this will teach me NEVER to comment on a blog again…..Cuz now I have been tagged.

I have to post these rules before I give you the facts.
Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

Where does one start???

1. In college and high school, I played Tuba. In spite of that fact, I still had a very active social life. I was the exception to the Tuba player = Loser stigma I saw so much.

2. I used to ride a motorcycle. But due to to a wreck and financial problems, I had to get rid of it. I currently debating putting da Missus and BOTH of my twin children on eBay to help me buy a new one. ***Shhh don’t tell them***

3. As flirtatious and a whore as I can be online, in real life dating or a lot of social situations, I can get rather shy.

4. I have lost 30 pounds in the last 6 weeks. Yes, I am bragging about that.

5. I enjoy drinking High Dollar scotch, mid range bourbon and cheap beer.

6. I never really understood people who actually WATCH porn. I mean I knew a guy once who got mad at a bachelor party because a bunch of us kept talking and he could not hear the dialogue. Porn has a purpose, get ya hard to make it easier to get off.

7. I can make chocolate cheesecakes that could make nuns give up their virginity for. Yes, I am bragging again.

8. Doing Posts like this make me realize how boring I am

Now…….Who do I tag for revenge??????

da Missus …. Cuz it is fun

Mia …. Cuz I can

Joe Flirt …

Oblivion

Jonny

Jeanie (will post link later)

Bunny … See what you get for commenting on my blog?

Antyone else who stops by can also join along.

1. What is the meanest thing you’ve ever done/said to a lover/loved one? I had an affair.
2. Have you ever had sex on an elevator? Sex, No……Deep kissing and groping, Yes
3. Have you ever lied about a rash and said it was a birthmark? OR Have you ever lied about a birthmark and said it was a rash? No and No
4. Have you ever had sex on a beach or in the water at a beach/pool? In a lake, in a public Hotub, In a pool. I guess that would be a YES
5. How old are you? 36 How old do you feel? =P Due to certain situations, older than I want to
6. Have you or your partner been injured so badly during sex that you/they had to go to the hospital? No, but DAMN….I am willing to try
7. Have you been to a strip club or "titty bar"? Yes (Hooters does NOT count.Been there though) If so, did you get a lap dance? Not only have I had a lap dance, I have had my GF / Wife pay for it for me.

It took a long time to recover from the affair. We went through marriage counciling.

It worked short term. We went through a group marriage class. It, too, worked, short term.

However, she has not let it all go. Should she? I cannot say. But I continued every day to be everything she could want.

Things were going well for a long time, and there was a time our sex life was unbelievable.  We were at it every day. Many times multiple times a day. She wanted more. We decided to open our marriage. She slept with one of my best friends. I knew about it. I was okay with it. She hooked up with her best friend. I did not find out about that for weeks, but that was due to a miscommunication. She went on an overnight trip to meet a guy from online, I said ok and even found a babysitter for her.

It had not hit me until a few months ago when we went to a party together.

This was an AFF party. AFF is an adult chat / hookup website. It was where she and I met originally. It was after that party I realized how far I had fallen. On the drive we discussed what was going to be acceptable and what was not. We were in a good place and we decided anything goes.

There was this guy who was seriously hitting on this girl we had been friendly with. He would not stop. Nothing TOO much, but he was persistant. This friend ask da Missus to help get him off her. da Missus started talking, which led to flirting which led to her asking me for a condom so they could go out to the parking lot and fuck.

I did not handle that very well. She came back. We talked, and I told her that yes I knew what she was doing but it hit me harder than expected. But hey, anything goes right? She knew I was upset. Her reaction was to spend the next few hours hanging on someone else. 

I forgave her. I have gotten past it.

She now has a new boyfriend so she can explore her side of the D/s relationship. We are both at heart subs.

She has a new Dom. All I ask is that they do not talk on the phone over the weekends or once I get home from work. She finds these rules as me "controlling her", but is attempting to follow them as she sees fit.

And if he calls, I try not to say anything. I try and let her do what ever she wants.

And every day, she asks for more. 

She left town 3 years ago …

I fucked someone else.

I did not tell her about it for months.

I wanted to tell her; I just did not know how.

She found out. I confessed. Our lives were in turmoil. She contacted a lawyer. I did not even know about that until years later, but somehow I knew.

I spent every moment after that trying to get her to forgive me. I would do anything to make her happy. I gave up so much of myself, and was willing to give up even more. 

I loved her. I love her. I wanted to be with her. I knew tyhat I had commited an error fatale. But I still wanted her. I still want her. 

This was when I realized, that I would do anything to keep her.

Tomorrow……Becoming HER sub. From then until now. 

[PREP]

[X] You know how to ride a horse
[X] You know what the PBR is
[X] You don’t/ wouldn’t mind swimming in a pond
[X] You play in the mud after it rains
[X] You drink from a water hose
[x] You have/had gone to a rodeo
[x] You know who layne frost is
[X] Youve been to a pickin before
[x] You told/tell yourself to "cowboy up"
[x] You listened to all of freebird
Total: 10/10