Code Name D.A.D. … Defeat Anger Daily

Internet down at house. Working from 3 to 4 OTHER desks than my own at work. I am ALIVE!!!!!

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I have been a bad blogger. I have had LOTS to say, just not the focus to say it. So, without further …

da Missus and I are getting along great. We are still working out time and planning situations with our new dating life, but WE are doing great. Talking, laughing communicating. Just wish we still had one thing.

da Mistress and I are getting along great. Still developing our boundaries, but that is half the fun. Sex is pretty much whenever we hook up.

However, I miss the intimacy with da Missus. I miss holding her through the night. I miss her body, her skin, and her lips. I miss …. HER.

I don’t know. I guess that this is the sacrifice I have to make. da Missus and I have fallen into true best friends who happen to have kids together that we are raising. And in many ways, that is not bad. Let rephrase that; we are getting along better than we have in years. But there is so much more. We had it at one time, and we make noises that we are trying to reclaim it. I do not see that that has happened. I know it will take time. I know it will take more than just time, but time for da Missus and me to be alone. No kids and no OTHERS interfering with our time.

I guess maybe I am asking for too much. Most guys would be more than happy to be allowed a wife AND a girlfriend. But truth be told, I would give up the Girlfriend to have the full relationship back with da Missus. And I do not think she realizes how much I do miss her.

da Mistress is helping me live out so many of my fantasies. And that is great. I hope I am enough for her. I still feel like I am not enough to satisfy her. And truth be told, I have to relearn so much. When you have been with basically exclusive with one person for so long it can be difficult to remember that every lover is different, and there is no other way to say it, She is a demanding partner. But the learning is a LOT of fun.

WORK

Work is …. Well, it is call work and not fun for a reason. My team has been disbanded. I will not have my own team back until sometime in November at the soonest.
Until then, I get to bounce around from assignment to assignment. While in a lot of ways, this will be less work for me overall, the constant unknown of the schedule will get old all too soon. Right now, I know my next three weeks schedule, and after that I have no clue. Time will tell.

da Twinsies

Every day they continue to amaze me. da Boy has the most creative active imagination, mixed with a cruel, cruel sense of logic and reality. da Girl, well da Girl is Gorgous and she knows how to use it as a weapon. Gawd help the nuns, because I have been defeated by the Cute. I am shipping her off to a convent in a couple weeks. 

OTHER LIFE

Car broke down. Still waiting on it to be fixed AND the bill. I am getting a bit afraid on THAT one. Microwave died. I had no clue how much we used it until it died. Da Missus laptop may be dying. It will need a new hard drive soon. We will need to find the $$ for THAT also. Anyone care to send me cash?????? Liquor cabinet is almost empty, and I could use a drink.

So I tried the interview things with a few people….And they did not respond.

 Now I am going to fire the questions out there to all of my fans. Answer in comments, or email….However you wish

1) If you had one month alone in your house, no family, no kids, no friends, no phone, no computer, no communication with anyone; with this be heaven or hell? What would you do?

5) What is your dream job? And this does not even have to be a real job. What would you want to do everyday and get paid for it????? 

I took Sage Vivant’s Erotic Personality Quiz and discovered I’m a Student!

I am in an interesting place right now. It is a difficult place. It is confusing. It is awesome. It is scary. It is mind blowing.

It is my fantasies being lived out.

It is my nightmares waiting in the wings

I have a partner who is meeting my emotional needs. I have a partner who is helping out around the house.  I have a partner who I can laugh with. I have a partner I can cry to. I have a partner I can hang out with. I have a partner who is filling my sexual needs. I have a partner that is filling out my fantasies.

I have a friend. I have a partner. I have a confidant. I have a pal. I have a buddy.

I have a wife.

I have a girlfriend.

And just in case anyone is confused out there, they are NOT the same person.

The funniest thing about this is that I think I am having more issues with this than da Missus and da Mistress are. Of course the fact they are best friends may be part of this.

What have I gotten myself into??????   You know what??? I do not CARE. It only becomes a problem when I actively think about it. Right now, I am going to enjoy the ride.

Ever had a fantasy, that you had decided would always be just a fantasy and never lived out? And then one day it happened???

 You have????    Congratulations

 You have not??  I am so sorry

Details when I can comprehend what happened. 

Change yourself to become everything that YOU think they want YOU to be, reguardless of what THEY want. Change into someone that YOU think they want versus the person they fell in love with.

To be Continued……..

1. have you ever been so ashamed/embarrassed about your body or yourself that you could not be intimate with someone? why, and what did you do about it, if anything? Not really.

2. what is the part of your body you feel worst about, and why? what are you planning on doing about it, if anything? Would have to be my beer belly. Actually, I have done a lot. I have lost 40= pounds this year. 20 more to go

3. what is the part of your body you feel best about, and why? Right now, funny to say a lot of it is my belly at the moment. Justbecause I have seen how much it has gone down. I do get comment a lot about my eyes though.

1. Toilet paper: over, under, or what the hell are you talking about? I prefer it sitting on the coubter. Our holder for me is tough to get to.

2. Toilet when you are done: everything up, seat down but lid up, everything down? I try to put it down.

3. When was the last time you kissed someone not your significant other? [I am talking about a kiss with some gusto not just a little hello or goodbye peck]. Sunday Night….

4. Would you rather have you significant other (this can be a hypothetical SO) have sex with someone else or fall in love with someone else? [You have to pick one.] Oh this one is EASY since I am and have dealt with both. Her having just ex is a whole lot easier to deal with, compared to now where she is in love.

5. If you had $1,000,000 to give away, how would you divide it up? Who and how much? I think my bill collectors would take it all anyway. 70% back to my parents and the rest to charity.

Bonus (as in optional):

Tell us something that very few people know about you.