I do not know where to start.
It has finally sunk in(Stop me when you have heard this before). My marriage is over. She is not coming back anytime soon, and possibly not ever. She has left and has my 2 kids with a man who i do not see as 10% the father I am.
She admits that what she did to ne is wrong, and still love me and all that bullshit, but cannot get over my past mistakes. Some real; some imagined. So I am learning to live life alone.
I have learned a lot.
1) Don’t trust anyone
2) Don’t depend on anyone
3) Don’t ever let go of your heart
4) Nothing is forever
I find it hilarious that she wrote this long wonderful post on my birthday in 2006 saying how wonderful and awesome and all this shit. 6 months later, she has a new boyfriend. Yes we were in an open relationship, but she had already checked out. And not even 18 months after that, I tell her if the open relationship BS was going to work, she had to come home, or the marriage was over. She chose the latter. Notice I didn’t eve say she had to leave her BF. Well, enough of that.
Now I do things my way. And I have told her how things are going to be changing, because even though she walked out on me, in so many damn ways she still relied on me, depended on me and seemed to need me. That is now over.
I will always be there for the kids, do not get me wrong there, but until he is gone, I will not and cannot be there for her. I hope she can handle what all that means.
More to follow
Bravo.
Comment by Anonymous — November 20, 2008 @ 11:46 pm