Code Name D.A.D. … Defeat Anger Daily

January 30, 2009

Instant Happiness…..

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Living. And it is kind of fun

Filed under: Dating, Finding Myself

“J.D.’s Narration: ‘I don’t think people are meant to be by themselves. That’s why, if you actually find someone you care about it’s important to let go of the little thing; even if you can’t let go all the way. Because nothing sucks more than feeling all alone…no matter how many people are around.’” Scrubs

It can be very liberating when you realize that even if you are alone you can survive. I have a very co-dependant nature. I guess most of you who have read this realize that. And I got to the point where my entire life was wrapped up in making “the one” happy. And then she left.

Now I am alone. Yes, I have been dating. And there is one particular one that I have been seeing more regular than anyone else. She and I have known each other for awhile. And it would be so easy to elevate this into a relationship. We grab a dinner together. We spend a weekend together. We talk nearly every night. But it is not time. It may not even be right. So right now, I will have fun, refuse to let it elevate and live life large!!!!!!! I have no expectations from her, and I do not think she has any from me.

 

“Just follow the day……And reach for the SUN!!!!!!!” Polyphonic Spree….Light and Day.

P.S………I asked a HAWT, sexy, seriously flirty waitress for her phone number. Did I get it? Nope. Do I care……..NOPE. I took the chance. And when she said no, I laughed finished my beer. In one night, I hit multiple resolutions…….I ROCK.

January 20, 2009

A new day……

Filed under: Finding Myself

I hate my job……

Wow, aren’t ya’ll tired of that? I think i am. I am looking at some things and realize that I got it pretty damn good. I have a decent paying job. I have an easy job. Admittedly, the majority of the people who are in my supervisory roll could not hold a job at McDonalds. But I have realized something…..

That doesn’t matter I cannot change that. I am slowly realizing that. Yeas, I got royally fuck out of the position. Yes, I still should be in that position. But it is time to stop whining, bitching, moaning, and gernerally acting like a PMS princess, and time to suck it up.

It is time for me to go back and prove that I am the best one up there.

Kiss my ass world, cuz that is all you will be able to see as I blow past you.

January 15, 2009

Resolutions……..New Year, many of the same lies….

Filed under: Finding Myself

Every year I try to do resolutions, mostly I fail in them. But the New Year is a good time to look back and look forward both. So with no further adieu…

  • Stop Smoking. Yeah I know, same one for last 10 years. But I have to keep trying.
  •   Lose Weight. Again, nothing new there, but I am trying a different approach
  • Get a new job. I have GOT to get out of that place. It is a factory for depression.
  • Write a book
  • Get a roommate (Split the bill, more $$ to play)
  • Quit dwelling on the past.
  • Start figure out a way to buy a new motorcycle.
  • This is the Big one….LIVE LIFE AND LIVE LIFE LARGE!!!!!!! What does that mean?

  • Quit taking rejection as a personal thing.
  • Close down the bar on a work night.
  • Call in sick and tell the boss it is because of a hangover
  • Go to work with a hangover
  • Take days off to take them off. Not for sick or to do house work. But to enjoy life.
  • Sleep with someone and never know their name.
  • Ask the cute waitress that I have been flirting with all night for her phone number. Which one? WHO CARES?
  • Take the kids to the park on an unscheduled day off.
  • Do the wrong the for pure fun and not feel guilty about it

 

Sure many of these sound destructive. And physically maybe some of them are. But some times, you need to look out and do thing for your mental health also. And I need to find the guy I used to be. The one who was fun to be around. The one people used to come to to have fun with. The guy I used to like.

 

This last weekend I found a bit of him He was fun to have around. He is still in there, I want him to be the one who everyone gets to know.

 

Some of these have already been done……More to come.

 

WISH ME LUCK!!!!!!!

January 1, 2009

New Year…….New Me

Filed under: Finding Myself

Somewhere between writing that poor me bullshit post and last night, Things have changed. Yeah, so I spent New Year’s Eve @ my house alone.

I made that choice. And yes, it is a choice that I am happy with. I put up with no one but me. I had other offers, but none of them just seem to fit just what I wanted. And by God, right now, I am taking what I want.

Not only am I taking what I want, I am not not settling anymore. I am becoming very much all or nothing. Some people say that is not healthy. Fuck them. It is how I am. I may end up missing out on things, but when I hit, I am going to hit it all.

 da Missus placed some post on her blog this year for me to read for my birthday. I have not done it yet. I am not sure I am going to. It is probably very sweet and touching and says how much I mean to her. But right now, I don’t think it is healthy for me to read it. Right now, I do not need her as a friend. Her friendship at this moment is not healthy for me. I want her all or not at all right now. She ain’t coming back, so I am pulling back.

My resolutions? They are coming. I am putting a lot of thought into them this year. 

 






















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